lofi looping ambient, one of the nicest ones I've done - it's not a failure on your part or mine if 59 minutes is too much - the time to stop is the time when the pleasure stops, whether that's after 0 seconds or 8 seconds or 1 minute or 37 minutes ..... it'll always be here when the mood returns
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Over 200 albums so far this year and there's still time for another 80 or 30000 before the year's end, but this still feels like a good morning to take stock of how my musical career has progressed so far this year - and yes of course the joke is in the word "progress" - from a kindly starting-line of about 8 or nine visits per day, that has fallen away and now most days no one visits.
Surely mine must be the most unsuccessful music career in history. And yes/no, I'm not going to try to get all cleverly counterintuitive on you/me and say that the opposite end of Adele is just an equal but mirror-image of that success - all-or-nothing is always better than anywhere in between. Who wants to be somewhere in the 9-to-5 middling middle same as everyone else ?
I wouldn't mind it really. At the genuinely no-audience spectrum of the No Audience Underground, I still often listen to lots of random Bandcampers, just as I meet lots of random people, and I have to say that there is no sense behind any of it - and I am very glad - some extremely tedious people are very popular, many lovely people seem to have no friends, there are horrible bullies who have their gang of fawners, there are safe conformists who get real pleasure from being in big crowds of fellow-conformists, there are non-conformists who are just as popular, and those who aren't, there are those who make music to be liked and those who make music the only way they know how - I'm one of the latter really - within the tiny scope of my capabilities, the stuff I like best is the stuff where nothing much happens, stuff like this one really, so this is what I do.
If I could I would sound like Prefab Sprout or ABC or Wire. But I can't. And if I could and did, and still wasn't liked, then I would be downcast. But here, like this, doing stuff that is so easy and fast and glib, it is all in the doing, and after it's done it's on to the next one - and truly it would be a bore to be popular, it would feel like a failure, by having no fans I know that I must be doing it purely for myself, which might sound selfish, but making music for others is too clingy and needy and during these last 2 years I've got a bit sick of the needy people in my life, did it really take this to discover that we are all best off alone ?
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recorded yesterday, photo Southampton yesterday
this is an extended blurred version of the final track on Simon Aulman's Christmas Holiday Present
it sounds like those early Selbstportrait albums that Roedelius did a million years ago that have been my favourite albums for all of my life katharine eastman
The latest from Grails is full of woozy, expansive music that draws on a host of sources to create immersive compositions. Bandcamp New & Notable Dec 5, 2016
